You Wouldn't Believe How Long It Took To Write Even This Pitiful Attempt At A Post.

Having been so long away from this space and you, my dear friends, I've kind of...lost my voice. I find myself composing half-posts in my head and then, you know how it goes--I lose the thread before I can sit my ass in a chair that doesn't include a toddler trying to scale it. While whining or screaming or grunting or pulling at me. Making it impossible to concentrate.

Wait. What was I saying?

Anyway.

I want to write. I want to tell you things. But I just don't know what to say.

Is that writer's block?

Maybe.

I am good for a few 140-character tweets here and there but it seems that, in a way, Twitter is helping to kill my blog.  I tweet something and then my brain calls it 'DONE!' and it doesn't make it to the page here. Which is ridiculous, I know, but there it is.

So.

What now?

I remember the days of [you guys doing the creative heavy lifting] blog participation fondly.

Anything you want to hear about?

 

Comments

[Kate]

I hate to say it, because in no way am I happy that you're struggling right now, but it's helping me with my own struggles to read yours. I really sincerely hope that comes out right. The last thing I mean to do is offend. But I'm sitting here, at work, at a job I hate with a boss that is doing her subtle best to get me to quit and I just needed something (ANYTHING) to get me out of myself for a moment. And your post did just that. So thanks.

And just because you're not posting regularly doesn't mean people still aren't checking in with you. I'm not subscribed because I like the not knowing if there's going to be a new post when I check and I just had to let you know that I'm still out here reading. Thanks for helping me feel a little less alone/frustrated/on the verge of quitting anyway.

[Alexis Z. (since there seem to be two of us on here)]

I really am a fan of whatever you write about, since it is real, and touching, and usually funny, too. I also want to let you know that ever since I read about that thing you do with your daughter where you talk about the best part/worst part of your day, I started this with my son (he's 3 and a half), and he loves it, and I do too.

So for that little, but not so little, thing, thank you.

[Alexis]

In light of the Charlie Sheen debacle and you being in the mental health profession, what do you think? As a consumer and non-professional, I'm going with manic possibly caused by bipolar disorder (1, in my non-professional opinion) since the man tested drug free. What are your thoughts?

[The Domestic Goddess]

I'm kinda in the same boat. I'm just disinterested right now. Not sure why.

[ClumberKim]

You're in my head, right? You say it better than I do, but I have been having the same thoughts.

Write whatever you need to write.

[PrincessHippopotamus]

I would like to add my vote to MANSON

[attiton]

Uh, recipes? I'm always up for new recipes...

[The New Girl]

Lisa C: Oh, HA HA! No, you didn't miss it. My poor SEVENTEEN MONTH OLD SON doesn't HAVE a birth story published here. I have a draft started and will dust it off and finish it...JUST FOR YOU.

Well. And for him, too, I suppose.

Although, does a grown man EVER want to think about how he came into the world? Perhaps not.

Just for you, then.

[Lisa C in Georgia]

I don't think I missed it, if you did post it. (hard to imagine with all the blog stalking I do here) But I'd love to hear The Boy's birthstory.

[Clueless But Hopeful Mama]

Add another check in the Dad stories column!

Your twitter-self is strong. One day, you won't be able to contain what you have to say in 140 characters. No worries, we'll still be here.

[Swistle]

I like it when people do posts with pictures of their decorations: pictures on the wall, decorative knick-knacks.

Also, I'd like to hear some funny dad anecdotes and get an update on how he's doing.

Also, I'd like to know where you were on the good teenager / bad teenager spectrum.

Also, if painters would come in and do all the work/moving, which room would you have them paint, and what color?

Also, what do you think of no-carb diets?

[The New Girl]

I seriously wish that Manson knew how much you guys fucking LOVE his crazy, crazy, ass.

[Alexis]

Definitely Manson

[rachel]

I have the same problem, but with facebook. One liners is all I'm good for anymore. :(

[britni]

My blog too is... stagnating. So, tell me about yourself? If you do, then I'll do.

You know what I mean.

[julie]

If you're looking for topics, I'm always interested in crazy neighbor stories and stuff about the kids. How are they liking having grandpa nearby? How are they interacting with each other as they grow? I love watching our three kids learning to balance friendship and their own identities.

Don't sweat it, don't think it has to be some epic masterpiece. I have blogs on my reader that haven't posted in a year or more. I always hope to see a new post and sometimes click through in case there's a reader error, but no hard feelings. We all understand that life and actually parenting and blogging about those things are not always compatible.

[Good Enough Mama]

I hear you. My blog nearly died this year. And it's easy to forget how good it feels to be (slightly, in my case) creative...

Welcome back. (You really weren't gone for THAT long.)

(wink)

[Cheryl]

I've become accustomed to coming to your site to jump over to your twitter account to see what's new. I came on tonight and completely bypassed your new blog entry...Was like "whoa, back up! holy crap! there's been a posting!". I so sympathize with how crazy your life is now with the kids. My boys are now 13 and 20, but man do I remember how overwhelming it was. I think your children are beautiful and they deserve all the time and attention that they crave from you. You are such a talented writer though, and your blog is one of the few that I truly, truly enjoyed to read. I love the stories about your dad, and the insanity of motherhood (little boys on tables, endless viruses) resonates as well. We called our youngest Elvirus for an entire fall and winter one year. That stuff can cause PTSD - I KNOW. I guess what I'm trying to say is please don't give up twitter, and don't stress about posting on your blog. Your family needs you.

[annettek]

I'd like old skool neighbor story please. ;)