Lots To Talk About But Nothing To Say.

Do you ever feel this way? 

I feel it on the reg, whenever I'm stressed or the general level of anxiety is up a notch (or twenty.)  I have ideas, things I want to talk about but when I sit down to write (a post or even an email to a friend), I've got nothing.  If you've been reading here for any length of time, you already KNOW this about me, which makes even [the whining] the description irrelevant.

The list of things that are currently stressing me out is short.  There are two items:

1) Going to Blogher

2) Having another baby

I am beyond excited to go to BlogHer.  I really am.  The reason it's stressing me out is because I'm always a little stressed as a travel date approaches (I have a case of a self-identified disorder called Travel Anxiety) and also because I've never, ever been away from my girl for that long. (You can roll your eyes, really, it's okay.  I KNOW.)

I know (KNOW!) she's going to be fine.  She will be with The Man (who I am SURE is, heh, going to enlist the help of [even homeless people off the streets if he has to] family and our sitter).  My kid going to live/survive/go on/get fed/semi-bathed (let's be for real) and although her clothes won't match and her hair will be a knotty mess when I see her, she's going to be OKAY.  Really, I am aware.

It's just, you know, my first time away and it stings a little.  I'm keeping my mind focused on the things I'm excited about (Going through airport security ALONE! Reading on the plane! Meeting people! Trying to stay up past 8pm!) and also on things that I'm NOT going to miss, like planning [every fucking morsel that passes between her lips] meals and [wet, naked, lubed up, alligator wrangling] bath time/bed routine.  When I'm able to do that, I want to leave a day early and stay a day longer.

The other thing, you know, having another baby--we'll leave that [elephant in the room] for another post. 

I've forgotten everything I wanted to say about that, anyway.

Comments

[carolyn]

When my first child was 18 months, her dad and I went to Europe for 2 weeks WITHOUT HER!! It was fun and terrorizing at the same time. My sister and brother-in-law stayed with her in our home, so she was loved and well cared for. But still....it was hard on me. I even kept my watch set to the correct time at home so I would have an idea of what she was doing (sleeping, eating) at any give time.

[Suzy Voices]

Ooh, I have Travel Anxiety too!! Perhaps that's why I pack my entire closet for a one-day trip! But I know full well the anxiety that comes with leaving your little one(s) for ANY length of time. It sucks. On my honeymoon, I had to call my children every single day. This irritated my husband to no end. It was supposed to be all about us, but the anxiety of not being with them had overtaken me!

But you know it will be OK, once it's over. It's the going through it that sucks. Wow, that's some wisdom for you. I need to shut up now.

[The Domestic Goddess]

DOOOOOD That sounds like fun. If I didn't have such an issue with flying (those little puke bags are for meeeeeee) I'd go, too. I'd do anything to get out of this hell-hole.

ALso? Where is blogher?

[-R-]

Yes, I feel like that too. Mostly though, I'm so tired that when I sit down to write, I end up just posting pictures because it is faster and easier.

I imagine it is hard to leave your kid for a few days. I actually want to plan a trip for myself though, mainly so I can just sleep through the night for the first time in a year!

[Stimey]

Oh, hooray!! BlogHer! I'm going to put you on my stalking list.

[Swistle]

YES, I get that too.

[Amelia Sprout]

I'd stalk you if I knew what you looked like.

I am going to BlogHer, have never been away for the child for more than like 10 hours, and won't be eating the day I travel because of the anxiety. And I've been packing for three weeks already.

[Lori Portka]

When is blogher? I can't wait to hear about it!

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