Having a lot of Slow Time (you know, like PRISON TIME,) (AKA being too sick to do anything fun and/or being awake during odd hours of the night) gives me a lot of time to ponder. Lucky you!
Here are some of the questions that I have been mulling over:
* Are all of your houses cleaner than mine? I don't mean are they cleaner than mine is RIGHT NOW, because I've been sick and unable to clean super-thoroughly. I mean, are all of your houses cleaner than mine is on the reg? I FAIL at housekeeping and/or clean-freakishness and although I could blame The Man for being less than neat, I have to admit that I am also hit or miss when it comes to housework. For instance, if I have people over, I have to clean and clean. Plus? I still have to shut the doors of my bedroom and the spare room because they? Need SERIOUS work. I imagine that college kids have more put-together rooms than mine and it is a Humiliation Situation. After the house is clean, it takes roughly THREE DAYS for it to become unvisitable again. WTF?
* Do other people start having second thoughts about having another kid AFTER they get knocked up? It is no secret that I was incredibly ambivalent about having children in the first place. Once I made the decision to have a baby, I never looked back, despite the level of sickness that I had the first time around. I lamented the illness for sure but I just figured that it was part of the package. I somehow thought that having one would make me less ambivalent re: having a second. I KNOW! I'll wait while you're done laughing your asses off. It really didn't make me less ambivalent but we came to the decision much like we did the first time. Being up against The Clock was a factor or I may have waited. HOWEVER, I find myself thinking, 'What the hell did I DO?' We were out of the woods with the first one. Only children are GREAT! One college tuition! One car for a teenager! What were we thiiiiiinking?? [I don't have like, FOR REAL second thoughts, it's just HOLY HELL, you know?]
* Are other people less phased by taking medicine during their second pregnancies? During my first pregnancy, I got about a HUNDRED colds. I even wrote a memo to my immune system (I was way funnier back then). I SUFFERED and SUFFERED with stuffiness and head congestion and stuffiness. This time? I just took some Benadryl. I don't know. I was on Zofran for so long with the first one and I guess I figured that a Benadryl swap for the Zofran was a decent trade. Or something.
* How is it that people have such hard and fast [
and obnoxiously judgmental] opinions about what other people do? I know that a lot of people feel like it's a mother to mother thing and perhaps because that is a community in which we spend a lot of time, it seems/feels like that. I think, though, that it is a more global phenomenon, that it happens all over. People judge and feel free to share their opinions and judgments with others. It's overwhelming to me. Partly, I think it's human nature to have a subjective viewpoint about things and to feel somewhat threatened by someone/something that challenges the way you see things. But there are lots of things that are human nature that we ideally inhibit. I think that being an opinionated/judgmental A-hole should be one of them. So, if you're judging me for taking Benadryl LA LA LA LAAAAAA, I'M NOT LISTENING TO YOU.
* Why is it that Kate (from Jon and Kate Plus 8) often makes me feel inferior (as do a lot of other clean freaks)? See question #1, obv. It's true, though. I find that when I have a friend or an acquaintance who is a neat-freak and/or germaphobe, I feel that they are judging me (even if they aren't.) (But really, I think that they are.) I often wonder how they find the time and/or the energy and/or the inner drive to keep house the way that they do and I so wish I had a little of that brand of crazy. As, you know, my own brand of crazy involves mostly messing things up.
* Why can I not seem to cultivate consistency in my life? I am consistently inconsistent. And that? Would probably be IT for what is consistent about me. I'm exaggerating, really. I always, ALWAYS wash my make-up off of my face before going to bed. And I consistently parent with consistent expectations. And I consistently wear my seatbelt. But the things about which I am inconsistent (motivation for exercise and eating right, say, or being able to keep my house/car in decent shape) seem to be the most prominent in my mind. At least for right now. It's possible that I'll forget all about it in a couple days.