Yeeeah, So..

You know that awkward moment at the beginning of a conversation when you haven't seen or talked to someone for a long time and now, here you are, having gone so long without talking that there's so much to say but, really--how do you decide what to say first? And so, despite the OBVIOUS FACT that there's been shit going down, you just make some idle chit-chat for a while, warm up a little and just wait for the opportunity to spill your guts, so it's not all like this:

'Hey! I've missed you!  My mom died!' 

[Edited to add: ZOMFG, dudes!  I'm sorry about that particular wording there...my mom died almost FOUR YEARS AGO, I was just, you know, using it as an illustrative example. AAAACK. Am a TOOOOL.]

Which is, you know, SUPER-AWK.

So, I guess this post would be that awkward moment.  Me making idle chit-chat, without going on and on about the shit that's been going down because, really, I don't quite know where to start.  It's been difficult here and I've been handling it like [a turtle] [a snail] I tend to handle these situations.  I think that what may be partly responsible for this particular glitch is that I have absolutely NO ability or inclination to 'fake it' and so, if there's shit going down, I'm not equipped to 'pretend' that everything is normal, so I just cut out.

Tomorrow I'll know more and I'll share.  I'm all right, so don't worry.  I just want to have things a little situated in my head. 

I really have missed you, though. 

It gets cramped in that shell.

Comments

[Lori]

love you T

[Julie]

Thinking of you. Understand the withdrawal quite well, along with the bumpy re-entry.

[Bmom]

Hey, just sending some thoughts out to you and whatever it is that you are going through - wishing you all the best, NG. Take care!

[jean]

Share or not, I'm just glad you're back.

Of course I hope everything is ok and yes, a small part of me is very nosy and wants to hear everything - but I can keep that part quiet with some chocolate. So don't worry.

[Chicky Chicky Baby]

You know i understand. So, yeah...

[CuriousParty]

OMG, totally know what you mean. Jan 2009 started off with a wicked bang, and I've spent the last few weeks having *those* conversations. Every time I think, please, let this be the last time...then something else comes up. So my empathy to you. Hope things turn out okay in the end.

[astarte]

Well, we'll be here whenever you're ready to share. :)

[kayla]

Well I miss you and I will pray that whatever the situation is - it has nothing to do with the tlng!

HUGS
K

[the new girl]

New Duck: Yes, yes. Boob pictures always help...didn't I once send you a picture of my boobs??

[-R-]

I hope things do get situated for you.

[New Duck]

Okay, in all seriousness now. You would not BELIEVE the crazy shit that's gone down in my life that never makes it to my blog. If I can't write about it, I just pretend it isn't happening. But my metaphoric blog-closet? Is FULL of skeletons. So don't feel like you have to share with us or anything.

[New Duck]

We've missed you. Blogging isn't the same without you. Would it make you feel better if I sent you a picture of my boobs?

[Chibi Jeebs]

I'm so sorry for your loss. *squishy hugs*

[Mama Bub]

Posts like this make the eight year old in me want to go, "No, tell me noooooow," when all I'm really thinking is I hope everything is okay.

[Manic Mommy]

I would have said ostrich but to each his own simile.

Sending positive thoughts your way, buddy.

[Emily]

Awww I miss you too. And whatever you have to deal with we're here to change the subject or help you wade through it. I hope you're ok.

(and not sure if it will cheer you up or not but I'm giving away some jewelry on my blog?!?)

[*m*]

Do what you have to do. Hang in there.

[mrs.chicken]

Oh my! I hope you are OK. I'll be back whenever you are ready to share.

[moo]

I am so, so sorry for your loss.